Angie's Aim

I just went to my second follow-up appointment with the doctor who performed my lap-band surgery. I’m hesitant to share the numbers with you, because they mean different things to different people. My total loss so far, which would bring most folks to their goal weight, is only a start for me. But I suppose losing 42 lbs is something to be celebrated regardless! Bear in mind much of that is due to the pre-op and post-op liquid diet. The rest is due to the hard work that surrender requires.

As of now my band has not been tightened, so I do not feel any restriction when I eat… That may seem odd (because that’s what it’s there for, right?!) but my doctor is of the mindset that I should lose as much weight as I can by following their food restrictions and exercising before we begin to adjust the band. This trains me to do the work rather than relying on the band. It should be a *help* to me, not some magical implant that allows me to eat whatever I want and still lose weight. In case any of you are still searching for that program, let me save you some time – it doesn’t exist!

And as with most things, there are loopholes in this system. If people really have a heart to cheat, to indulge… they can employ their most clever efforts to make that happen. So much depends on the deepest dedication of the heart. And for the most part, I’m there… but I’ve had several weak moments that have led to slip ups. Nothing detrimental… I’m talking about eating too fast, eating more than I should, testing the waters in advancing on to a food that’s not allowed yet. And even though I can “get by” with those things, it’s a slippery slope & I fear what it might lead to. It’s such a challenge to be faithful in the small things.

Realistically, I have barely gotten out of the starting gate in this marathon, so it’s not quite time to be planning trips or anything… But I have an opportunity that I just can’t pass up! My friend Greg has been planning a trip to New York to see the first few days of play at the US Open with another friend of his - who bailed on him at the last minute. Fortunately I’m willing to step in! Anything for a friend! :-) It will still be a challenge for me, but it’s one I’m up for (one which wouldn’t have been a consideration pre-surgery). So, I’m thankful for Greg’s lame friend… because now I have the chance to see some awesome LIVE tennis and see New York City! Another highlight will be the chance to meet fellow (ex) blogger Little Light while I’m in Manhattan! How great is that!

BTW, we’ll have several days to explore the Big Apple before the tennis action begins. I’d love to hear any suggestions for how to spend some of that time from those of you who’ve already taken a bite out of the Apple. All input is welcome, so please share!